good afternoon world,

it's nice to make your acquaintance.

i enjoy the beautiful sunshine

and the gently blowing breeze.

the sight of people delighting in the weather

makes my heart happy.

living life with not a care in the world.

i wish that statement were true,

but it's not.

i worry about so much,

which is probably why

my heads pounds daily.

casting my cares to the Lord should be effortless,

but i can't manage to do it.

i feel like the weight of the world is resting on my shoulders,

and all i can do it just carry it.

one day i will learn,

one day i will change,

one day life won't be completely awful.

i'm just tired. i'm tired of being in the same place. i want to get away. i want to explore the world.

i want to have a better relationship with God. i want to grow closer to Him. i want to be pursued by Him daily. i want my life to reflect His love, kindness, joy, hope, etc.

i want to chill out. i want my life to make sense. i want to know what i'm supposed to be doing with my life. i want for everything to work out in an orderly fashion. i want my feelings to subside for one moment and allow me to breath. i want to forget the emotion of anger and always be happy.

i want God to be glorified in all that i do. i want to truly be living my life for Him. i want to please Him and live in His plan as opposed to living in mine.

i don't want to try to be perfect. i want to be me.

april days

April has arrived, yay!

Just a few weeks of classes left and then its time for finals.

Rock-climbing this weekend.

Sunset concert, SCF banquet the next weekend.

And AWESOME DAY, Ruth's House yard sale the weekend after that.

And then finals begin.

And then graduation/my birthday/Ame's promenade.

Wow, it doesn't seem like much, but I'm definitely looking forward to all these things.