my not so mid-life catastrophes

i'm just tired. i'm tired of being in the same place. i want to get away. i want to explore the world.

i want to have a better relationship with God. i want to grow closer to Him. i want to be pursued by Him daily. i want my life to reflect His love, kindness, joy, hope, etc.

i want to chill out. i want my life to make sense. i want to know what i'm supposed to be doing with my life. i want for everything to work out in an orderly fashion. i want my feelings to subside for one moment and allow me to breath. i want to forget the emotion of anger and always be happy.

i want God to be glorified in all that i do. i want to truly be living my life for Him. i want to please Him and live in His plan as opposed to living in mine.

i don't want to try to be perfect. i want to be me.