February brought about a lot of funs times! At the beginning, I went to a retreat in Washington, IN at Camp Iliana. It was a lot of fun! A group from my Student Christian Fellowship went and met a bunch of other campus ministry groups from all over Indiana. It was an awesome experience. Just to be able to get away from school and have some quality time with friends and more importantly, with God. It was really the best way to spend a weekend. We were there from Friday evening until Sunday morning. We had many large group sessions with awesome worship, and also had small group times to discuss what we were talking about. Of course, we played games and had a lot of time to just hang out and nap and eat. I'm really excited about what God is doing on my campus as well as the other campuses we got to meet with. He is really moving in a powerful way!
Since then, there has been a lot of school. I've been bogged down with classes. All my other classes are going okay. Neuroscience is probably my favorite/most interesting. Organic Chemistry is really kicking my butt. I have been struggling to learn it, I just don't comprehend the material. I feel rather dumb coming out of that class. My friend Phil is trying to help me, but even that's not helping. Thursday night, actually it was early Friday morning (think 2am-ish), I had a breakthrough. I've been struggling and struggling, and really stressing out about life and classes, and what I want to do with my life. I've just turned it all over to God and I'm letting Him have His way. I've been trying to make my own decisions for far too long. God has had a plan for me since the first time He thought me into existence. So why am I trying to even pretend like I have a say in it? Well, I just gave it up to Him. I still don't know exactly what I'm supposed to be doing in life. It could still be physical therapy, but I just don't feel like that is my calling. I actually have no idea what my calling is. I know there's something out there for me. I've started compiling a list of things I like:
-Art/Art history
-Kids
-Photography
-Helping people
-God
-Traveling
That's my list so far. I don't know how those things connect and what they mean, but I know God is in charge. God has a plan. God knows what He is doing. God wants to see me grow and prosper. God is a BIG God who holds the whole world in His hands. With God nothing is impossible!
So we'll see where God leads me.
Side note: I'm so thankful for my awesome friends here at school. Especially Phil, who helped me through my hard time Thursday/Friday. God strategically placed these people in my life and I'm so so so glad! Shannon, Alex T., Phil, Cody, Ben, Becca P., Allyson, Becca K., Kaitlin, Matt, Guy, Jennifer, Jamie, Kayla, Chloe, Hannah, Brittany, Chloe, Austin, Steve, Sara, Daniel, Tonya, Yvonne, Alex S., Courtney, Andrew, Wade, Erin, Maggie, Kris... and I'm sure I'm forgetting some one, but that doesn't make them any less important. Each and every one of them has touched my life in an incredible way. Without them, I would be completely lost and alone. Also, I am super thankful for such great leadership for SCF. Trevor and Mark are awesome. I'm glad that I can talk to them about anything and get excellent guidance from either. Yay for God being so good to me!!
